Dear me,
I’d like to say I’m gonna kill myself but I think about friends and family and my siblings and I can’t. I just get so pissed off and panicky with myself its like my hearts racing and I start thinking just cutting it all away would make it all better. Cut the fat away. So I try. Epic fail. Not deep enough so you keep going until it is. And still nothings better. You’re still that worthless pity partying little fuck you were before. No different but now you wear the proof of how pathetic you are. Congrats sweety, you made it to the big leagues. You hate yourself, your life, your past and your future looks pretty fucking shitty too. You can’t lose weight you fat disgusting pig and every time you leave the house people stare and glare at how pathetic you are. Like they know everything. But don’t worry a lot of people pity disgraceful fucks like you. Yay you -__- you must be so proud you spebt all last summer lost 55lbs in less then a month and a half just to gain it back and more after losing control. You my friend are a fucking idiot. Sincerly, me.
I eat. I eat healthy shit. I eat fruits and veggies. And I workout. I do exactly what people are supposed to. Its healthy. It doesn’t matter that I eat no more than 300 calories because its all healthy shit for ME. Not you. I’m not restricting you. It doesn’t matter that I workout for 2.5 hours a day 7 days a week. Its not your whiney ass body that’s sore and your not the one drowning in diet pills and hiding razors all over the house and in the truck just so that at any waking moment when some little dick sucking leech like you makes a smartass comment about my weight I can curl up into a ball, a lumpy fat ball and cry after I cut myself. Congradulations. You officially make others feel like shit and then you tell them how their dealing with themselves is also wrong so you make us feel like shit some more. I hace a suggestion for you…just a suggestion u don’t have to do it but you should…because if you tell me one more goddamn thing abouy how fat or how stupid I am for trying to do all this shit to make me not fat I will cut off your dick and shove it down your throat and watch you choke on it…ok?? Again just a suggestion but by all means, test me.
Sunny D and sour patch kids are vegan friendly…wow. A whole world opens up haha!!
Anyways, the sister and I are doing zumba workouts later but I’m not counting today as day one of my lose weight plan. That’ll be tomarrow, when I don’t overload on sunny d and sour patch kids lol and I wonder why I have a fatass lol
Anyways I havn’t completely planned out every little detail of my weightloss shin-dig yet so I guess I should figure that out.
Living with a family who hunts deer and elk and eats meat all the time I could never imagine being vegetarian let alone vegan. I used to wonder what they eat but now I get it. You can eat fruits and veggies so maybe ill try it. I’m gonna start working out a lot and try eating just fruits and vegetables…and basically vegan :) just to try…cause I’m curious. I’m starting all this May 1st :)
I’m going to be working out a lot so instead of fasting through this and passing out I’ll eat a few fruits and veggies. Sorry had to write about this some where
